Banshee’s Weblog  from last saturday make me think a lot the last few day’s. He wrote about friends and friendship, friends being a mirror for yourselfes, and the other way around. A mirror to think about the things you do, your motivations, your acts and your feelings.
I don’t have many friends at the moment, still I’m happy with myself. I lost a lot of friends the last few years. It all happened when I got into a relationship. This relationship got the best out of me. My friends were difficult to fit into this life. My love, my best friend, needed all my attention and I needed all her attention. All went very well for quite a long time… we got some new friends, I lost some friends… all seem to be a normal phase in one’s life.
But one day, my love, my best friend, my partner in my life, found a new friend, she felt more for his love and friendship. She left me immediately. One week later, I lost my best friend. No argument, no fight. Simply gone…
It’s now some time ago, and I’m mostly over this. But, Banshee’s writing made me think a lot. We were then so busy with each other, I didn’t need most of my other friends. Also, most of my friends didn’t seem to be very happy with my new position in life. Contact with them has changed… Weird, but I suppose these things happen. Cést la vie. We felt we were stronger together, a team no-one could beat. We took care for each other, we supported each other… we made fun of each other, together we lived in our own fantasy world. Both we felt, we were no longer confronted with the problems alone, but together. Together we were stronger and unbeatable… Together we also learned to be our best friend, I learned to accept myself more, so did she. We both learned more about ourselfes together then before. We discoverd some patterns and they were questioned. Some habbits were changed, some became better. We were each other mirror.
When the relationship went out, I needed quite some time to adjust myself to my new live. Had difficult to accept my self and accept her decission.
Its still diffucult to see each other, because we are confronted with that mirror again, I think. Seeing each other brings back memories, mostly good ones, and you’re confronted with your self from that period… which is difficult… seeing the other, presents that mirror again.
Thank you Banshee for your writing, I still haven’t figured out what it did with me.

Talking about mirrors, I discovered this website recently, I had to post my view in a mirror too. >> http://www.mirrorproject.com